When I thought up the url/name for this website, scienceofrealitycreation.com struck me as being consistent with what my favorite writers were saying, especially Seth, who said: “You Create Your Own Reality” in the beginning of Nature of Personal Reality.
Back then, around 2000, I was pretty knee-deep in this stuff, especially after reading more stuff like Neville’s books, and then Deepak’s 7 Spiritual Laws book.
My first hint that there was much more to this, than simply Assuming The Feeling-State of your Goal in just the right way, was Lynn Grabhorn’s workbook that she sold as a companion to her Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting book. In that book, she includes a short story about a woman who shows up for a seminar, very happy on the outside, or trying to fake it at least, but she was creating all types of unfortunate events on the outside such as spilling coffee or knocking down things from tables.
Lynn describes the cause as being: this woman had so much repressed negative energy that she was not owning, or even acknowledging. So this negative stuff was being forced out in other ways – physical events that causes unpleasant awkwardness and discomfort with her and other people in the room.
My first very proactive step in addressing my own un-acknowledged unconscious emotions was buying The Release Technique CD set around 2004. This did help, but it wasn’t until Jan/2007, when I started doing the Process in Busting Loose from the Money Game, that I began to really know that I was now able to start literally projecting a different reality into my hologram (the way Robert Scheinfeld describes it). I had just moved to Seattle at that time, w/o a job secured, but with about 6 months of rent saved up. I was excited to be in a new place, but worried that my crappy interviewing skills were going to mean the death of me, and my savings would be gone w/me trying to figure out what to do.
I remember waking up at 6am, and though loving the idea that I was finally in the NW and had new places to explore possibly today, those lovely thoughts were buried under: “why the f didn’t that recruiter get back to me on the results of submitting my resume”, and knowing I can’t really be gallivanting around spending gas money if I didn’t have work lined up soon.
The first difficult thing, would for me to turn from my fetal position that I was laying in, and just lay on my back.. for some reason that position forces me to become more conscious of my thoughts and forces me to deal with what’s in front of me. And then the next thing, would for me to get out of my bed and go to my couch and just sit there, and literally dive into my dark feelings.. the first two times were among the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. But this difficulty meant that I hit upon the right road, the correct path, to finally changing what my unconscious thought patterns were projecting into my hologram (versus, what I used to do years ago, which was re-read Neville or Deepak once in a while, get excited about what I could manifest, and then go back to my life, changing absolutely nothing)
The Feeling, to the Core of my Being, after doing the Process, was of a knowing that this is what needs doing, no matter how antithetical it seemed to books on LOA that tell you to focus on the positive. My fear about money is about almost nil, and though my relocation to WA was short-lived, since then, I’ve never had any money emergencies, and even somehow always stayed above scraping by.
When I heard one of Gary Renard’s (author of The Disappearance of the Universe) podcast, and he praised Busting Loose from the Money Game very enthusiastically, I was moved to buy Gary’s own book, Disappearance.
This book is slowly moving me to follow a gut intuition I’ve had for many years, to start the Course in Miracles Text, being that D.O.T.U. is based on it. Most of D.O.T.U is really about our unconscious, and how our immediate illusionary universe, are intertwined, and how to slowly embrace the Holy Spirit part of our self.
If you feel like you’ve been stuck on that this-book-looks-like-an-even-better-book-on-LOA, “so maybe this will be it” Treadmill, it may be time to move past this level. If you don’t want to risk putting out the cash for either Robert’s or Garys’ book, try the library, you can’t go wrong.
For those who have, in fact, read BLMG, as a starter into what ACIM teaches, I’d recommend: It’s All Mind: The Simplified Philosophy of A Course in Miracles. The process, which involves being non-resistance to what you’re feeling in your Hologram, is similar to the Process in BLMG.